The first and The Last

In this moment I will let you know of anybody that I've ever loved.
The one that last and those who just like a storm has passed. you know? I do not want to expect too long, so that's why I'm easy to fall in love.

First of all.. My first love while in junior high school.
love which is arguably funny, because I fell in love with him in just 3 seconds!
what magic he applied at the time, I do not know.
the chronology is it was the first day of Orientation Period Students at our school, and it was a break time at the moment. because I dont have a friend at the time, I was out of the classroom alone and just at that moment he passed in front of me with the gang, behind him was his men who faithfully follow him wherever he goes.
At that point I knew that just me will remembered that moment. Nobody, just me. He smiled slightly and continued his steps. even he may not remember.
he was expelled from school in the second year. and I've only met him a few times since then. he changed. he's taller. his voice sounded more severe.
I tried to dig up all the memories of him. none have succeeded revealed from inside my brain. there just makes my heart beat faster even if I remember about him. his position as my first love successfully made my cheeks red when the moment his face appeared like a silhouette in my hallucination space.

I miss you Abo..

now about someone who is immortal in my heart.

Ken ..

I have once expressed my feelings to him.
even though he is a badboy, but he understanding of the chick. this iswhat i love. so even though he has a girlfriend I would be happy for him. This is not due to a proverb, but because of a desire. but if she makes him sick. I will condemn her with a thousands of curse.
I consider him to be a brother.
I've talked about him on wordpress account that I have. so I will no longer talk much about him

and now about the highschool life.
I actually dont know what the cause I fell in love with him. or how? or why?
all I know he was the first man who met me formally (in this case to shake hands when introduced)
he is clever and cunning in playing basketball. while we were still in the bottom tiers junior (grade 10) he was the only junior who joined the team in basketball club.
see him every day in front of my class when he was visiting friends, there is a sense that began to grow. till now.. will it last? i dont know.. let the time decide it :) 

right 'near'?

and now, i realize that i am far too easy to fall in love.  

but you know, of course there is a difference between admires and loves. this time i still dont know how to differentiate these two feelings. 

all i knew is, right now, today, this minute, i'm starting to like someone else, once again. to be honest i'm afraid to write something about his here. but i will try my best to not overly expose his traits ~ first, first impression when I met him ... too good.  you know the most daring thing i've ever done? the answer is went to, well, pretty much far place from my house with him, the man i had just met. i don't know why, but i know i can trust him. and it has been proven. he is very talented in leading a group, that's why he is our leader. second, sometimes i think he likes me. you know,  there are times when he looked at me, smiled at me, or when he talked to me, i thought he liked me. but then i realized that he was staring, smiling and talking to others like that too. Why he should always smile like that to everyone? when i asked that, his answer is "because it himself". i know.. i can't blame him. third, when he touch me, butterflies on my stomach went crazy. right now, i can't tell him this. i will ruin everything if i do that. so, save and sound. and it seems for this moment i have to love him in silence.